A time when you can't help but ask why....

Sorry for not posting for a few days, and I wish I could say everything is great and I was just being lazy but unfortunately that is not the case. We found out on Wednesday that my cancer, leukemia is back in my body. I know most of you when you read that last sentence will ask the same questions as me, why, how. So this means that I will have to start chemo next week to get my cancer back into remission and then most likely we will try a second transplant and this time instead of having a T-Cell depleted one, I will have a conventional transplant which will cause graft vs host disease but will kill off the leukemia cells as well. Mindy and I have decided to get married TOMORROW. I never thought people could pull off a wedding in 5 days but I know ours is going to be awesome. Since we are going to have to go through and down this long road again Mindy and I thought it only be fitting if we do it as husband and wife. Personally I was totally excited when we brought up the idea because I have been waiting forever to marry this amazing angel of mine. It is the night before my wedding right now so I'm going to keep this short, please keep me in your prayers and pray that the chemo regime they put me on next week gets my cancer into remission and that we have success with the donor again and a good second transplant. Tuesday I will see my doctor again and learn what the game plan will be. We have finished asking why and we have turned our lives over to the Lord, our lives are in his hands now, and when you think about it they have always been. I can't believe I'm getting married tomorrow, I love my future bride to be so much and I can not wait to call her my wife, tomorrow in the mist of everything else I am dealing with I will be able to say with absolute certainty I am the luckiest man on the face of the earth. I love you Mindy, you are my everything.